Tuesday, June 5, 2012

Alone and Invisible

I am trying so hard not to cry today. Feel so depressed and tired. My body hurts so completely right now even my hair hurts. I don't know how I keep going. I wish I didn't have to keep going. Housework, children, meals, homework, husband, pets, phone calls and bills...and all I want to is cry. There's no one to call to get me off the ledge. No one in my circles who really know what I am going through.
I read blogs, search sites and "see" others going through the same thing but it's relative to them in their life. Even when I am positive way deep down there is a nagging voice that tells me I am alone. Alone in my world surround by people who will never "get it". And although I know I need to get over it, it is heartbreaking. We are raised to strive for connections. In effect to share. In both work and personal life we instinctively want to connect. Human beings are social animals. To find and share love, friendship, generosity, money, home, food, work, and pleasures. All these things are a far greater experience when you do it with others, and for others. As with all illness, especially INVISIBLE ones, we are robbed of some of that experience. Even in circles of support and groups of fellow sufferers. The ability to identify is helpful but not complete. I am left with the knowledge that no on can share this with me. No one can lessen it, or make it appear to be any better than it really is. I have to feel every nanosecond of the pain alone, but I get share everything I can when I am well. Tomorrow I may feel differently, but today it just makes me want to cry.

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  1. It is frustrating that no matter how many people we know with Fibro, we each suffer with it so differently that we feel like we are fighting it alone.

    We just have to remember that by banding together as much as we can we can help each other, even a little bit.

  2. That is so true, thanks for that :)