Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Spoons? What spoons?!

Had some chocolate before bed last night...bad..up all night. But I was ambitious enough about it to get some photos ready for an upcoming gallery show. Yet another thing I have been procrastinating about. Joined some websites and support groups and generally made good use of my time. Feel okay and today that is enough. Waking up is always something I look to as a kind of grab bag. When I wake up I never know what I'm going to get. Good day-bad day, a lot of pain-a little pain.. But today I did not need anymore spoons, nor did I even think about it.

Monday, November 14, 2011

Pudding feet

Trying to stay motivated today was like trudging through pudding. I was making forward progress but not very enthusiastically. As usual I procrastinated on a task so I had no choice but to force myself to get it done today. My mind was focused but my body was wrestling it to submit to the power of the couch. Alas I was triumphant! I know some things need to bone to set an example for my kids, or to prevent that extra ten pounds, or even just to hide the fact I feel so bad from everyone. Some days its easy, some days it's hard and I am resentful. Then there are days where I get nothing done at all. I am still trying to give myself the okay to have those days now and then that it's okay to do nothing and just take advantage of the physical down time. But my ADD is always preventing me from getting mental down time, therefore I never, ever feel as if I have rested. EVER!!!! So today I have pudding feet, but my mind is sharp. Let's see what tomorrow brings.contemplating on a purchase, link below, but on the fence. I did buy a "yoga for back care" and it was great so nat all these excercise DVDs are a gimmick. will update if I do it, good or bad outcome.

Sunday, November 13, 2011


"Its hard to explain to someone who has no clue about an invisible illness. It's a daily struggle being in pain or feeling sick on the inside while you look fine on the outside. Please put this as your status for at least 1 hour if you or someone you know has an invisible illness (PTSD, Anxiety, {Intracranial Hypertension}IH, Bipolar, Depression, Diabetes, LUPUS, Fibromyalgia, MS, ME, Arthritis, Cancer, Heart Disease, Epilepsy, Autism,M.D. etc.) " Never judge what you don't understand"."