2021 ALREADY? Living in a time warp

 I am in front of my light therapy box, have bergamot in the diffuser and have a roll on cbd oil on my wrists and I am trying to get motivated to do some things. Any things. When you have that list a mile long, but know you may really only get to two of them. I am trying to decide which 2 things will take priority when and if I get moving.

Also, I am looking on my sidebar at all the blogs I follow, or follow'ed' regularly and almost all of them have not posted in YEARS!! Not months, years. So I don't feel so bad dropping the ball here myself when I was so on top of things in the past.

One note to make was I was home 100% of the time, on disability. I had nothing but time to research things, read, and write. Now its been a few years where I have been working full time or working art time with side jobs. There is never enough money and I swear if I want relying on so many vitamins and supplements to function every day Id have a few more dollars in my pocket. 

I have now left the preschool I was at, Covid-related (and I was totally backstabbed by a boss I've known and trusted for about 25 years, lets just put that out there since this is my honesty place).

I had 2 friends simultaneously ask about watching their kids when school  started in September, and i looked at it as a blessing from God since we would have been homeless without my income to help. Where do you go to get a job during a pandemic that you actually feel safe and would bring home a decent paycheck? 

So now i have kids in my house, parents aren't allowed to go past the front porch for drop off and pickup, but its still scary. My kids are remote and have been since school started., probably all year at this point. Its better I am home.

Today starts 2021.

No resolutions because those aren't actually kept. Just to continue working on myself is my plan wherever that leads. I am back on meds for the winter, although I have skipped a few sessions, talking to a therapist, and the next is to get back to the chiropractor.

"I dont have feel good, I just want to feel better"~Alone Time by Lovelytheband

that sums it up. I know it does for a lot of  people.

'...And I would change it if I could, if I could

I'm sick of sadness all together
Oh, I could use a distraction to cope with my life
So thin a little more healthy
See the sun every night
I don't have to feel good
Oh, I just wanna feel better"

I heard a statistic the other day that the person in the household who goes to therapy is the higher functioning person. I already could have told you that 😆 but hey...

So I just walked the dog, feel better. 

Lots of stress and concern in this house because we are black, spanish and have asthma.

Apparently Fibro isn't an added condition to be concerned about, but the stress of thinking about it is still an energy sucker.

 Beyond that, stress itself can have a toll on the immune system and that's what they are listing as making you more susceptible to covid!  A compromised immune system. I say that it does not mean you have a have diagnosed autoimmune system disease, I believe it only needs to be just weakened or compromised. CHRONIC PAIN DOES THAT! STRESS DOES THAT!

Had to look up some things, thought I'd share.

Stress and Immune System Function

Does Fibromyalgia Make You at a Higher Risk for Coronavirus?

Fibromyalgia treatments like antidepressants and antiseizure drugs shouldn't affect your immune system or your risk for COVID-19. It's important to keep taking your fibromyalgia medicines to avoid flares.

Are Coronavirus Symptoms Different If You Have an Autoimmune Condition or Chronic Illness?

So the key here is as usual, as many post, study, research, and publish about, is to find ways to be less stressed. NOW more than ever for those of us with chronic pain conditions. PERIOD.