Same old story

Is anyone else tired of telling people the same story over and over? People forget what I have and ask questions that are ridiculous! If  I say my back hurt or I was really tired or I had a bad day and had to just sit of the couch I very often get a "why, what happened?" Come on people i't bad enough I am struggling, can you please make a mental note that I may not look sick, but I am!!!! (update) Doing very well on vitamin D, B12, and 5 htp. Much better than in the last year.i can tell when i forget to take it because i get tired, depressed, and have little interest in anything. I definitely recommend it for anyone not wanting to take prescriptions.

Blessed and stressed

Holidays are tricky when you have something as unpredictable as fibro. I m aware that I need to take it easy but with the ever growing list of things to do between thanksgiving and the new year it's very hard to keep a pace that will not add any unnecessary stress to my body. I'm blessed to be as mobile as I am. Many are worse off. I appreciate what I have and what I can do. But when my hands hurt cutting out snowflakes or putting together a barbie house I have a lingering worry in the back of my head about how long this will last. Hopefully the new year will bring new education, funding and treatment for all of us. Recently I read the blog of a very happy positive fellow sufferer, and although its great to be positive, just because you can do all "these" things, doesn't mean I can, and because I can do something also doesn't mean someone else should be able to either. Our conditions are relative to ourselves. If you can run a marathon with fibro good for you, but don't tell me I can. Nor do I want to! I can do today what my body will allow me to do and for now that's good enough. Happy new year everybody!!!

Things you can't say out loud..

Today is the day that inevitably comes around a few times a month, despite all my efforts, I want to be left the hell alone! I have been on a B12 and HTP regiment and feel much better. I have yet to add the vitamin d or Q12 I have been planning simply because I haven't had the funds. But even with the better days, i have hit the wall. I knowingly did too much the other day and now Im paying for it. I ran a couple miles, went to two different supermarkets, made brownies for dance class, cleaned the house , hung new shades, cooked dinner, bought a new car, stressed over a money/daycare issues, and to top it off I have been battling a respiratory cold since mid September...then very clearly expressed to my husband that I needed a break. My back , my head, my neck, all the usual complaints.I couldn't wait for school the next day so I could sit and do nothing and try to rest. A few hours later upon my daughter coughing for a few minutes, he asked her if she wanted to stay home from school the next day..and of course she says yes...WTF.  Now can I tell my kids father hes an ass? Not in front of them..but in my head I said it ALL night long. And of course the next day was pure hell. She was definately well enough for school, and i was laid up with the worst back pain, struggling all day to play with her..growing more and more resentful as the day went on. I tickled her and had coffee, popped a few advil here and there, and managed to get through the day. But all I can think is I want to slap a certain person in the head. Someone who is usually pretty supportive, to do such a stupid thing and then get to walk out the door to go work and not have to witness the difficulty its caused. So after crawling on my hands and knees through the last 2 days, today I am trying some meditation techniques to get through at least until he is home from work. Today I will go in my bedroom and shut the door and leave him on duty till bedtime.

Oooooooommmmmm

Oooooooommmmmm

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Thinking of tomorrow...